A different shade of WHTE

Monday

=TEAL iS MY FAV COLOR=

i remembered how life was with Eliz. half the time i was guessing what she wants me to do. i asked her many times if she would want me to take the same bus as her, repeatedly. she told me, 'no'. after MANY times of just following her up the bus, i decided not to. after which, she called me - why i didn't get up the bus with her? sounds funny? but it's not, when it's you

i have been through so many years in my life trying to guess what other people want. From council to being in the youth group. every decision in life is just to ask - who would people react. would they be upset with this decision. how to make the BEST decision to please everyone.

now that i am not in the youth group. i really appreciate the simiplcity of life. seriously, i choose to live my life - just to be me. rules:
when i am happy I smile.
when i am sad, i am sad [but i would be comforted when my friends are happy]
when i am puzzled, i ask
if i don't have a good memory, i ask for paper.

nothing prideful about anything.
just want to be child-like.

my blog is quite like it's owner. my blog don't believe in being sacastic. i would like to say what i feel and go through during the day. the little thoughts that go through my head. the problems that i face involving things and people. it may sound a little tactless but maybe if u look at it in another way, it's just being truthful.

i am advised by many - somethings are better not said. keep silent. the whole incident just overwhelms me. i am very confused about the life that i choose to live. I just want to run away from the whole incident. Sometimes, i don't know who I am.

Now, I would like to say that

I still CHOOSE TO LIVE MY LIFE SIMIPLY

when i smile, i smile. when i am sad, i cry. i just want to keep this motto in life. not that i don't care about the feels of others. but i choose to live my life with no pretence. of course, my blog is the same too. no need to read and if there is double meaning. there isn't.

so,
i still dont like levi's
i still have a problem with the voucher
and
i still appreciate the people who gave it to me.

YEAH! Yuhong, I am very envious that you can post anything you want. Now, I choose to live freely. to be simple. to tell u how simple I am - if i have something troubling me, i can't sleep. it's not in my conscience to sleep, heavy heart. no restful nite => fever.

my heart+body+soul .. are just like tt!
hahaha

bianca: you asked if someone posted on their blog about the gift tt they don't like. my answer is still the same - i will apologised to them and always remember that i don't get the same thing.
nothing sacaratic about it.
i will do it.
=smiles=
hee hee, of course that's me.

I was trying so hard to sleep last night. emily suggested i count julian. the problem is that there is onLY one julian. so .. i counted,
'julian killed 1 enemy
julian killed 2 enemy... '
guess what. i really fell asleep.
one of the best BEST sleep

you know something.
I am just a little girl
god and julian's princess
=0)

[FRIENDS]
thanks for sticking by me. i really appreciate it ... i guess it's really time for me to sit down and to think about some stuff. I SERIOUSLY, ask you guys to pray for me. please pray for me.
1. that i have the strength to straighten everything
2. for my health - having fever the whole day. [more importantly]

Journey .. by Corrinne May
It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe

When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up
till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls
and pull me through

Cause it's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause it's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you to you

princess maddie.

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